Eminyakeni yami encane, angizange ngicabange ngempela ngokuba khona kwamanje. Ngokuphambene, isikhathi esiningi angizange ngilingise lesi sakhiwo esihlanganisa konke. Bengingavamile ukuhlala ngokwengqondo kulokho okubizwa ngokuthi manje futhi ngivame ukulahlekelwa yimina kaningi emaphethini/izimo ezimbi ezedlule noma zesikhathi esizayo. Ngaleso sikhathi ngangingakwazi lokhu ngakho-ke kwenzeka ukuthi ngidwebe okuningi kokubi kusukela esikhathini sami esidlule noma ikusasa lami. Ngangihlale ngikhathazeke ngekusasa lami, ngesaba ukuthi yini engase ifike, noma ngizizwa nginecala ngezehlakalo ezithile zesikhathi esidlule, ngihlukanisa izehlakalo ezidlule njengamaphutha, amaphutha engangizisola kakhulu ngawo kulowo mongo.
I-Present - Isikhathi esikhula phakade
Ngaleso sikhathi, ngangilokhu ngilahlekelwa yizimo zengqondo ezinjalo futhi ngivumela ingqondo yami/umzimba/umoya “uhlelo” lwami ukuba luqhubeke lungasebenzi kahle. Ngathola ukuhlupheka okwengeziwe kulokhu kuhlukumeza komcabango wami siqu futhi ngaleyo ndlela ngalahlekelwa ukuxhumana nomqondo wami womoya. Ekugcineni, kwadlula iminyaka ngaphambi kokuba mina nomfowethu sizithole sisesimweni sokuvuka ngokomoya. Ukuzazi okujulile kokuqala kwafinyelela ekuqapheleni kwethu futhi kusukela lapho ukuphila kwethu kwashintsha ngokuzumayo. Ukuzazi kokuqala okukhulu kwakuwukuthi akekho umuntu emhlabeni onelungelo lokwahlulela ngobumpumputhe impilo noma izwe lemicabango yomunye umuntu. Kusukela lapho konke kwashintsha. Ukuzazi okusha/ukunwetshwa kokuqaphela kwakha inkambo eqhubekayo yezimpilo zethu ngakho-ke ezinsukwini/izinyanga/iminyaka elandelayo sabhekana ngokujulile nokuqukethwe okungokomoya. Ngolunye usuku sasihlezi ndawonye ekamelweni lami futhi, ngemva kokufunda ifilosofi ejulile, saqaphela ukuthi okwedlule nekusasa ekugcineni kungukwakhiwa kwengqondo.
Okwedlule nekusasa kungukwakhiwa kwengqondo kuphela!!
Kulo mongo, saqaphela ukuthi besilokhu sikhona manje nokuthi lokhu kwakhiwa okutholakala yonke indawo kuhambisana nakho konke ukuba khona komuntu. Phela, okwedlule nekusasa akukho, noma ingabe sisesikhathini esedlule noma esizayo? Hhayi-ke, sisesikhathini samanje kuphela.
Ukuqaphela okwashintsha ukuqonda kwethu ukuphila
Okwenzeka esikhathini esidlule mayelana nalokhu kuyenzeka manje futhi okuzokwenzeka esikhathini esizayo nakho kuzokwenzeka manje. Saqaphela ukuthi isikhathi samanje, lesi esibizwa manje, yisikhathi esinwebekayo esihlala sikhona, esikhona futhi esizoba khona. Umzuzu owodwa esihlale sikuwo. Lesi sikhathi sidlulela phakade futhi besilokhu sikhona ngaphandle kwalokho futhi sizoba khona phakade. Noma kunjalo, abantu abaningi abenzi ngamaphethini amanje, kodwa bavame ukulahleka ezimeni ezedlule nezizayo. Kulo mongo, uthola ukuhlupheka okuningi emcabangweni wakho wengqondo futhi ngaleyo ndlela ulahlekelwe ibhalansi yakho. Lokhu kuhlukumeza ngokomqondo kungalandelelwa emuva enqondweni yakho enezinhlangothi ezi-3, eminyene ngamandla, enokuzazisa. Ekugcineni, lo mqondo uqinisekisa ukuthi thina bantu singakwazi ukubona ukuminyana okunamandla noma izimo ezingezinhle emoyeni wethu, izikhathi ezinemvamisa yokudlidliza ephansi ngenxa yesimo sazo sesakhiwo. Umuntu ongokwengqondo okwamanje futhi ongazilahleki ezimweni ezedlule noma ezizayo angenza lokhu kusukela ebukhoneni besikhathi samanje futhi adonse amandla okuphila kulo mthombo ohlale ukhona. Lokhu kuqaphela okujulile kwasithatha izinsuku eziningi ngaleso sikhathi. Kimina, kwakubonakala sengathi lapho umzala wami ethutha, ngangichitha amahora amaningi ngicabanga ngalokhu kuzazi okusha.
Ukuhlelwa kabusha okujulile kokungazi kwethu..!!
Kodwa lokhu kwangiqeda amandla kangangokuthi angibange ngisacabanga nganoma yini enye ngalelo langa. Ezinsukwini ezalandela, lolu lwazi lwaba ngokwejwayelekile, lwaba yingxenye yokungazi lutho kwethu futhi manje lwaluyingxenye ebalulekile yokubuka kwethu umhlaba. Yebo, lokho kwakungasho ukuthi asiphindanga siduka ezimweni zengqondo ezihlala njalo, kodwa lolu lwazi olusha lwaluyakha futhi lwenza kwaba lula kakhulu ngathi ukubhekana nezimo ezinjalo. Unalokhu engqondweni, hlala unempilo, ujabule futhi uphile ukuphila ngokuvumelana.
